God has been so good to me and yet sometimes, I still fall short of glory. I lose hope. I make my demons real. I believe in my insecurities and walk around heavy and stale. And even though in the back of my mind, I know God is there, I still forget to have faith.
I truly believe we were meant to fail and give up on the One who saved us all. I surely have. I’ve been ignorant to His power, turning my back on His love. My lows and my darkness, nearly ruined me.
His strength is revealed through our weakness.
He’s awaited for the most perfect opportunity to enlist my full attention. After i’d exhausted every option, I had no choice but to listen. I wanted the very best in life and thought that I could pioneer the way. I thought I could rebirth myself and fix every fold to look the way I envisioned. I sacrificed myself and ignored my inner yearnings to change, because I thought my spirit could wait. I was wrong. I invited another journey into my life that dismantled me. So, to fix my brokenness, I took a step back.
We must lose to gain.
Losing it all, allowed me to understand the true grace of having it all. Meaning, to be present with mind, body and spirit is the true blessing. The true gift. So, to you God, thank you for allowing me to suffer, experience pain, heartbreak and instability. Because of where I've been, there isn't a day I take for granted. My body is fueled by your love. Amidst the enemy's plot to take me out, I allowed you to change me. I appreciate the air that I breathe. It gives me the freedom I need to dream.
You sit right in the middle.
My entire life I knew of you, but now I know you. I am no longer ignorant to your identity and now, with you beside me, I am ready conquer the world. You are full of infinite power and grace. Your word has saved me. During my most difficult days, I am forced to remember that you are there, watching over me with great concern. For this, I am forever grateful. With you, my wings will carry me to places that are already blessed.
Note to self; keep going.
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