"If you assign worth to fear, it will behave as it is told" - Jasmine Mosley
I've seen it all.
I've seen people tip toe, i've seen people shy away and i've seen people water down their better judgment, just to appease those in high positions. In the beginning, it was instinct to follow suit. Learn the rules, follow the rules and smile for the audience. But somewhere, deep inside me was the urge to rebel.
I would have insight or great opinions about various subject matters, but remained silent. If a strong personality entered the room, I let my voice fade into the background. Fear ruled me and I hated it.
I feared disappointment so much, that I dreaded making mistakes. I felt I needed to be perfect and submissive in order to receive accolades. But it was somewhere between post college and seeing the headlights of thirty, that I decided to free my inner voice.
What changed for me?
I grew closer to God.
Building a relationship with God, reading the Bible and surrounding myself with true believers helped me to fully grasp his omnipotence. I finally understood just how powerful God truly is and therefore, stopped placing such a high title on human beings.
I trust my gut.
For many years, I would ignore my burning intuition and my desire to make a difference. Eventually, my shyness grew old and I decided to trust in myself instead of placing my trust in others.
I'm not afraid to make mistakes.
Now that I understand that it is impossible for human beings to reach perfection, I no longer hold myself to such a high standard. I am more interested in trusting and believing in my own intellect, and if I make a mistake, thats ok! We all miss the mark at some point.
One of the greatest realizations you will ever reach is that everyone is the same. We all experience the same emotions of disappointment, frustration and discouragement. The only difference is our reaction to life and the outlook we choose to take. Position and wealth cannot extend beyond its earthly boundaries, but confidence and self worth can lift you pass the stars and beyond.
It took me a while to understand this concept. I danced around the idea of walking in authority for such a long time, that it exhausted me. It became more of a task to fear than to just let go and jump. Now, I walk into a room with such grand confidence. I see people for who they truly are.....A human being .....just like me.